Another sad I wish “I would have”
Another decision to “never again”
Another tear and more “I’m sorry”
Another resolution made within

Another chance to make things different
A clean and hopeful fresh new start
But once more I can’t beat resistance
And once more failure breaks my heart

Another year and nothing changes
Another mess to rectify
Another dash in Your direction
And once more I don’t qualify

I try to add height to my stature
And play the role of something great
But each attempt ends in disaster
And now I dread the next clean slate

After my fake charades of grandeur
I know that I will never be
The one I want so much to give You
I realize I’m still just me

Commitments always come to only
Broken pieces in the sand
The only thought that keeps me now
Is that they all are in Your hand

My confidence and will are gone
I’ve given up at last for real
But if surrender makes me Yours
Then give me strength once more—
TO YEILD

Merry Christmas?

Today we put up our tree and decorated our house...and we were late. Lagging far behind the rest of the city, which is already wrapped in lights, bows and tinsel. I started seeing lights and trees in October, apparently a very normal thing for the very happy people in Medellin, who are still celebrating the 50th of December in the middle of January. So I'm in for a very long very joyous Christmas season. Merry Christmas everybody!

Instrument of Your peace

"Loving people live in a loving world. Hostile people live in a hostile world. Same world." - Wayne Dyer

While we wait around for others to notice —and perhaps even mention— the great person we are, how noble our loving deeds of sacrifice, and (why not) maybe even shine a little spot-light our way, others really just want to be the object of recognition…

It’s such a common infirmity. Everyone desperately wants their heroism loudly proclaimed, and the irony is, the only way to become a true hero in anyone’s heart is to extol their virtues endlessly, and forget entirely about your own.

The other day, while hearing this song for the 2,089th time, it finally hit me…this is the essence of life!!!

Oh happy person that I am in this new revelation.

O Master—

That I may not seek
To be consoled, but to console
Not to be understood, but to understand
Not to be loved, but rather to love
For it is in giving, that we will receive
And in forsaking, that we truly gain